As you know 1 month ago my pap came back saying that the high risk HPV was back, this time with no dysplasia luckily. It was shocking at first. Now one month later it’s gone!! My doctors are rather speechless. It was so fast. They say it usually takes about 3 months if it goes away at all .
I think the thing that so fascinates me about having had HPV and previously HPV with cervical dysplasia is that it’s the very first form of cancer. If you do nothing, you will develop cancer in 7-10 years. I had it at such an early stage I was able to just dial the clock back, to press rewind and go, oops, not going there thank you! It is the magic of this precise moment that fascinates me. This is the moment where it can either progress or regress and this is where within lies the answer to getting rid of disease and cancer. What can I learn from this? How can I pass this info on? This is why I have a blog and why I keep pressing forward in my self education or as my friend calls it my autodidacticism.
It’s like when you break up with someone or something in your life falls apart and you keep going back trying to find that exact moment that it all started to go wrong. Well, imagine being able to find that moment in health and study it. That exact moment you “got” cancer. I found that moment and I intend to study it.
There was always that part of me when dealing with this the first time, that wondered if it just went away by chance. Lots of doctors say that: “Sometimes it just goes away on it’s own”. That lead me to think, do I really need to be doing all this? Maybe it’s just coincidence and I could be eating bon bons and drinking martini’s. The fact that it came back and has since gone away again just proves that this is ENTIRELY in my control! Do you know who great that is?!!
We all know what I did last time which I blogged about in great detail here and if you are dealing with a diagnosis please read this first before posting questions below.
The big question is why did it come back?
Nobody seems to know the answer to this if I wasn’t re-exposed, which I wasn’t. It could be hiding in my system somewhere, nobody knows! Not my doctors, not research, not anyone. I have an idea though. Abandonment. I abandoned myself. I got too busy and stopped nurturing myself. I didn’t listen to my body. When I was tired I did not rest. When I was hungry I did not give myself good nutrients. I didn’t eat badly by any means. It’s not like I reverted back to In & Out and donuts. I started eating meek salads with nothing in them, gave up juicing and my green smoothies, stopped a lot of supplements, and stopped exercising. It’s easy to do when you’re busy. So once I realized this I snapped out of my pathetic state and took charge. Here is what I did.
First off, I did what I always do, I researched. You think I would have read everything on the subject last time but surprisingly I hadn’t! Three books were hugely influential in my process and I encourage you to read them all as they outline exactly how to reverse HPV, Dysplasia and Cervical Cancer naturally using alternative methods. Full protocols are laid out as well as treatment plans and herbal supplements. So please, do your research as I can not give advice to anyone but I can give you the tools to further your education. If you have been diagnosed with any of these please get these books. They will change everything about the way you approach this:
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HPV and Cervical Dysplasia: A Naturopathic Approach by Jane Semple
Here is what I did this time (I have bolded the new additions from last time):
For my diet I cut out the same things as before – please see Bueller’s Diet – that’s essentially what I followed. I did eat fish and I had chicken twice (still not a fan though).
Well first things first. I started drinking green smoothies every morning and green juice every afternoon, again!
I did a few rounds of vitamin A suppositories and the remaining Papillo suppositories that I had from last time.
2 things to mention that are so important and different from last time:
First: Vitamin D levels are normal now – this may explain why I got the virus but not the dysplasia. Check your levles people!! Read my doctors book THE VITAMIN D REVOLUTION by Dr. Khalsa
Second: I have less mercury than before, the fact that I still have quite a bit may explain why my system is still weak and it has come back but not as strongly as before.
I started taking DIM supplements (posted about this here). DIM helps eat up harmful free estrogen that is wrecking havoc in the body. I took bio-response, 1 tablet a day.
I took Curcumin C3 Complex. One tablet a day. This is mentioned in Tori Hudson’s book. She goes into great detail about what to do to beat these conditions. Read the book!!!
Then I went to see my doctor – she’s amazing – she put me back on 5,000 milligrams of folic acid a day with B-12 (you must take with B12 otherwise you will get depleted) and then we tried a new experimental homeopathic anti-viral called Guna Tf Papiloma – Directions: one capsule per day for 5 consecutive days each week (for instance: take one tablet daily Monday to Friday, then don’t on Saturday and Sunday). I took it 5 days on 2 days off for one month.
I started taking one 600mg tablet of Monolaurin a day.
One tablet of VRL-DX (formerly Viral Detox) a day (both anti-virals).
I slept A LOT!!!! I mean all day sometimes for a few days in a row. I just needed it. I let myself heal.
Then lastly was the most important and most interesting part of this journey, as I was still baffled as to why this came back. I just kept thinking, I was doing everything right!!! I may have been depleted but it’s not like I went back to eating chocolate chip cookies and ice cream! How could this be!! I just felt like I had been wrong about everything and then my dear wonderful healing guru and friend Kris Carr (Crazy Sexy Life) gave me a gentle nudge by suggesting I look into emotional healing. Something just clicked. I thought, well that is the one place I have not educated myself on. Whenever any of my books came to spirituality I skipped it and went straight to the facts. That is the scientist in me and quite frankly what is wrong with our whole medical system. This disconnection between mind and body is why sickness occurs, I am convinced. It is the answer to reversing the moment.
So I delved into spirituality and the emotion of healing. I walked around the lake listening to Deepak Chopra and Carolyn Myss (Healing With Spirit). This was very freeing. It was incredibly interesting and I’m still learning more about it. I can’t say there was a moment like, oh, that’s what I needed to know. It was just an overall feeling of well being. I also pictured my ovaries like little butterflies (more because it was easier than picturing my cervix, it’s really all the same though), happy and excited and fluttering around. This may sound silly but the more good energy you can focus on your healing the better and if that means thinking of butterflies so be it. When I went through this the first time everything I did was with the intention of healing. The food I made was to heal, the sleep I took was too heal, the exercise was to heal, etc….The mistake was once I was “healed” I stopped with the good intentions. So now I make sure that my focus is on well being so that even now that I’m healed I still have my intention set each day on what I want to accomplish and where I want my energy to go. You are energy. Make it a wonderful swirling tornado of love and hug yourself in it every day as silly as that sounds. Feed it with good food and nurture it. Give it love and it will grow. Your body is capable of amazing things! Trust it to take care of you!
All I can tell you ladies out there dealing with this is I have not only gotten rid of this once, but twice, so there’s no reason not to try!
So I am still learning, still growing and still educating myself. This experience has truly been a wonderful challenge and has made me even more sure of what I’ve learned, where I’m going, and the direction I want to keep going in.
My next step is to get rid of the remaining mercury and lead. My mercury is now at 16, down from 40. I will continue to use DMSA and chelation for 4 more months. This will also help to get rid of the remaining candida that came back after antibiotics last winter. The mercury and candida are linked in that they believe they feed off each other. I will attack the candida by again sticking to my diet and by taking Nystatin – which I’m not happy about but at the same time think my body could use it since I have 2 kinds of candida, candida intermedia and another kind I will have to look up, both are rather rare. The doctor was surprised. I also have 4 types of bad bacteria in my gut and I still have NO good bacteria. This has been 2 years of not one little good bacteria in my gut so we are on a mission to fix it. The probiotics just aren’t working. I don’t know where you go from here if these ones don’t work. I guess will see.
So that’s it in a nutshell for now! I will keep you posted as always along the way. Thank you so much for coming along with me on this journey! You all make it so much more fun and rewarding!
Be well,
Bueller
16 responses so far ↓
1 KristensRaw // Aug 17, 2009 at 1:36 am
Awesome post! Congratulations on your success.
And… yay for green smoothies and green juices.
Love the butterflies and healing aspect…. love it!
Kristen
2 nrc234 // Aug 19, 2009 at 10:58 am
hello i am happy for you and your results i am also starting to adopt a healthier diet with vegetables and fruit since i have found this website and what would realy be even better is if you told us exactly which strain of hpv did you have in one of your posts i read type 3 which isn't high risk
3 bueller // Aug 19, 2009 at 11:09 am
Hi, I've always stated I had high risk HPV. I never said 3. If you see that please let me know as that would be a typo. They didn't tell me which strain they just test for high risk or low risk. 16 is high risk and was included in the group of high risk strains they tested me for that I tested positive for.
Best of luck!
Bueller
4 magicmia // Sep 13, 2009 at 7:05 am
Hey Bueller,
thank you for sharing your knowledge. I have been told i have CIN 3 and after 5 days of panic and confusion reading your site has been a very sane experience. They want to operate but arent sure and really my gut says they dont know what they are doing. so grateful for your insight and story.
I had the whole candida and chronic fatigue thing 10 years ago, and want to tell you about a long-term antibiotic i was given to fight candida. it isnt absorbed through the gut lining, so doesnt damage you the same way as others, and better than nystatin. i was given it by an amazing homeopath, Dr. Jenkins at the london royal homeopathic hospital. I was put on amphoterecin for 3 months, then another 3. without that i wouldnt have kicked it – of course i did the diet, supplements etc – another useful one is grapefruit seed extract by Bioforce – strongest natural antifungal, i was told. The doctor and i had long conversations about fungal overgrowth – he is an expert in candida, and says there are so many strains and they dont actually know what combination causes what illness, so its all a stab in the dark. largescale and consistent action seems to work best.
odd conincidence that you just discovered the emotional – i have been working only or mainly on that aspect for the last 10 years and only just realized i need to do the physical bit too. happy to share more if it interests you. let me know. ha ha, swings and roundabouts. good reminder from you not to go slack on the maintenance when we are better. health is all that matters. if we dont have that, we have nothing.
love and best wishes to you,
Mia
5 jennifertore // Nov 24, 2009 at 5:39 pm
Reading your story has calmed me down and brought some peace to what is going on in my life! I have a one year old daughter and for the past 3 years I have had abnormal pap smears and multiple colposcopy's. I just got the results of another hpv test that is positive and I am now scheduled for another colposcopy in 3 weeks. I am frustrated and worried about my future health for myself and my daughter. I am motivated to change this and reading your story has motivated me even more. Thank you for sharing your wonderful journey. I am going to start mine. Best of luck and peace.
6 MelodieRose // Feb 3, 2010 at 5:28 am
Hi Bueller! I had taken all of your advice a couple of years ago when my High Risk HPV and Cervical Dysplasia was diagnosed. I have it go down significantly lower and it's back again!! I will definitely be following these steps. I'll check in after my exam in March.
Thank you for your inspiration!!!!!
7 Hhealth // Feb 8, 2010 at 8:57 pm
Hi Bueller,
I have had several friends and most recently a dear cousin to be diagnosed with high-risk strains of HPV and to have undergone many of the procedures you detailed. Although I have received the Gardasil vaccination, I am starting to worry that my own upcoming pap test could come back negative so I'm doing a little advanced research on my options. It just seems all too common; I literally feel in the minority NOT having it.
I just wanted to mention a treatment my naturopath recommended that I used to treat my own yeast– Miracle Mineral Solution (MMS) by Jim Humble. While it is not what I would call easy to use, it did help with my yeast and claims to be able to cure any virus including HPV. As you say in your disclaimer- I am in no way a doctor and cannot verify its effectiveness! I was just wondering if you've ever heard of/considered it.
8 nn // Jul 27, 2010 at 9:18 pm
hi
thankyou for documenting your journey…
im curious if you can link more info to GUNA-TF Papilloma and how it works…
my brother had treatment for warts.. on his hands perhaps.. awhile back.. and they injected the area next to the wart with the a small dosage of the same virus… so his immune system would get a taste for attacking the virus.. which worked and the wart was gone shortly thereafter…
would this be a similar process? from you link it seem so..
9 Sleepytrainrides // Jul 31, 2010 at 5:22 pm
Hi, Magicmia-
How are you? I also have a 17 month old and have recently been diagnosed with CIN 2 and 3. How's your healing?
-Shani.
10 bueller // Aug 1, 2010 at 4:13 am
I don't really know much about how it works. You could email the company and ask them. Perhaps worth trying.
11 bueller // Aug 1, 2010 at 4:38 am
Thanks Mia. I just moved to London. I love this place. I wouldn't have found it otherwise. Much appreciated!
12 Magicmia // Aug 1, 2010 at 6:46 am
Hi Shani,
Well, if i hadnt got the diagnosis i would never have been motivated to feel all the difficult stuff i am feeling. Its been an epic journey using NAET and homeopathy to sytematically unblock my energy, clear out child hood emotion etc. I am pretty much a different person. I work with a German homeopath here in Bali who does live blood analysis. for me its been a year long process – i dont see any other way. if they had just chopped a bit of me out the emotional roots would still have been there. One of the things i've discovered is that healing is not about forgiveness or any other concepts like that, but about just feeling fully whatever is arising in each moment. So my healing – an extraordinary journey. I drink a lot of cocounut water and green juices. My body asked me to fast for nearly 5 months – which i did. i lost no weight, but i tell you, when you fast there's no-where to hide from your emotions. It was very tough. at least i dont have a child to look after. Louise Hay says that cervical cancer is about rejecting or blocking your own creativity. It rang true for me – so i have been painting, dancing, doing websites, setting up businesses – all sorts of stuff just to let the life force flow.
I have more energy than i've had in my whole life, my relationships with people have changed for the better and i feel free. free of fear, free of a lot of conditioning and generally more alive. I cant tell you the medical perspective because after the damadge the first colcoscopy did, i wont be letting the conventional medical system get their hands on me again. the live blood anayslysis went through 4 significant stages, and the cells now are positively radiating like little ecstatic bubbles. The homeopath says there is no way i have cancer with blood that looks that good.
And the last thing i will say is that my mum, and the doctors who saw me are absolutely convinced that i am at risk of dying because i havent been back for treatment.
I just want to encourage you not to listen to the fear but to listen to your own bodily intuition and go your own route. i do think its good to work with a health professional that can monitor your healing process properly so you know where you are at.
If you have any questions about your own healing process please write. very happy to share and be of support in any way i can.
Mia
13 Magicmia // Aug 1, 2010 at 6:47 am
So you saw Dr Jenkins? Great!
14 bueller // Aug 3, 2010 at 12:50 pm
Not yet but because I'm all better but I will go to the hospital to treat my allergies. Very exciting. Thanks!
15 bueller // Aug 3, 2010 at 12:51 pm
Thanks Mia for sharing this! If you want to share your story please email me and I'll do a full post.
16 bueller // Aug 3, 2010 at 12:51 pm
Thanks Mia for sharing this! If you want to share your story please email me and I'll do a full post.
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